There's a reason for not updating for quite some time and I might say it is divided into two parts. Part one is mostly due to 'lazy'ing around and enjoying my time after so called hard work and lack of sleep before my exams. After I'm done with lazing around killing the time, came the part of me wanting to update a lot of things but lacking the mood. Part two was mainly because of this past week I have been in such a bad mood and mood swings that if I update this blog it might end up with bitter words and sentiments and would leave me rolling my eyes to the seventh heaven when I read it again later. So, I decided against updating anything even though Wan came along peeking around my blog and succumbed to spider bites. Poor you! Hehe

I don't blame anybody for my bad mood and tantrums that I'm throwing towards myself. Nobody caused it or triggered it per say, but a lot of people and events heightened the moodiness (is there such word?). I'm stating this down here as a reminder to myself in the future as not to organize anything for this particular person anymore, not at all even though that person begs like there's no tomorrow. Because you know what? Enough is enough. I organized a trip for that person, texting and calling other friends to make it happen and when everything is almost in order, that person delivered a very very unacceptable reason to my ears and my mind for that matter. And so out of compassion and my desire in fulfilling that person's dream, I pulled another one, informed that person of the venue and time, and guess what, that person went silent, without even replying my msg. Hey, you know what? I'm not going to call you to ask whether you're joining or not even though the trip was organised for YOU! Because I'm sick and tired with such attitude of ungratefulness and childish tak bertempat. Period.

If that was typed away last week, I can almost assure myself it would come out more bitter and sneer. I'm just letting it out of my system, as a reminder in the future, that's all.

I cooled down bit by bit during the week. Thanx to lepaking with Syera and her brother and chatting away bout what we love most (Sorry Syera!). And lovely screams from the ever cute Hadhinah Afiqah when I called her Mama to wish Hadhinah Happy 1st Birthday. How time flies. Oh, her Papa said "Dia tak paham lagi la birthday" but I would really love to believe she understood it because when I talked to her on the phone she was quiet and when her Mama pulled away the phone, she started screaming her lungs out and when the phone is put to her ears again, she was silent and listening intently to me (perasan). And then there was this scary yet hilarious thingy happened to me and my car at the Sprint Highway which left me laughing alone in the car all the way from that toll booth until I reached client's place in TISB. And also after sharing fits of laughter watching Maru the Cutest Cat from Japan on youtube which was shared by Wan (Thanx Dear!). And aslo after a scrumptious dinner with Syera and her other half last night (Thanx u guys!) at a very lovely place with an excellent live band amidst the mosquito bites. And the fact that Papa and Mama are actually worried for leaving me in KL for these past two weeks while they are in BP enjoying the fruits. I wonder who is more clingy these days? Me clingy to them, or they are the ones who are clingy to me ;)

Ok, this post is going nowhere. So, I just hope this elevated level of progesterone hormone won't get any worse as it is with nausea and what not. And I'm simply thankful to Allah that I get to wake up and take in another day, Alhamdulillah. With great friends that I can't thank enough, Alhamdulillah. And the best parents that Allah had bestowed upon me. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. :)

Wishing you

the best birthday

the best of health

the ultimate happiness

barakah and rahmah from Him, all your life

May today be the happiest day

and may all your dreams come true

and since you're in a far far away land

at the moment I'll just give you the picture of the yummiest apple cake on earth

nak the real thing, tunggu kau balik sini

;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!

I am homesick at the moment even though I just came back from Klang a little less than 72 hours ago. Maybe I can thank this stress for my homesickness. Stressed out because of work dateline, stressed out because of what seems to be endless IRC this weekend, stressed out because exam is less than 7 days away, yet I'm not sure whether I'm prepared for it or not. But, I have to be, I have no choice. Stressed out because of some other things that I would rather not state here, maybe I'll just keep mum 'bout it.

Alhamdulillah I recovered from the week long fever on time for IRC, or else it will be a great loss and disadvantage. Alhamdulillah I didn't catch anything serious, just something that can be cured with a few verses of ayat Al-Quran. Alhamdulillah. Can't thank Mama and Papa enough for taking care after me and worrying their hearts out.

At the moment though, I only wish for a dip in a cool river, or sit under falling waterfalls, feeling water rushing down on my head; Lata Hammer seems superb, or I wish to sit on top of a mountain and wait for the break of dawn, witnessing sunrise that never fail to mesmerize me everytime the sun slowly peeks above the horizon.

Or maybe I should just stay put, face this homesickness head on and be strong, be steadfast and know when this stress wave ends, I'll have my life back. I hope.

Or maybe catching up with blog hopping activity that I have ignored this past week sounds good too.

I'm off to Titiwangsa to disturb a few pemancing tegar for an hour or so and later to 7 hours of IRC. I hope I'll survive. Phew~

Semasa saya capture gambar Kak Kui bersama Adam Haziq ni saya tidak berniat nak buatkan Kak Kui jadi sebegitu lovely seperti dalam gambar di atas. Apa? Tak lovely? Haha~ Pada saya Kak Kui sangat lovely dalam gambar di atas. Mesti Amir cair buat kesekian kalinya. Betol tak Amir? Hehe Oh ye, Kak Kui siap print gambar ni ok? ;) Nak letak di meja solek katanya. Adam, sorry ye, Auntie tak berniat nak capture moment Adam sedang sangap. But still, you're so adorable and cute :) walaupun sedang ternganga mulut. Sham dan Kak Anoy, jangan marah saya ye. ;) Your Adam is too adorable.

Oh ye, Ahad lepas saya dipaksa diajak Kak Kui untuk menemankan dia menjalankan tugas sebagai Official Photographer di majlis birthday BEN10 Malaysia a.ka. Haiqal Arif. Terasa seperti sudah tua, tetapi sangat seronok melihat semua orang ceria dan gembira meraikan majlis. Makanan pun, sangat superb. Dari kuey teow goreng ke nasi impit ke roti jala ke donut Big Apple dan kek Choc Indulgence dari Secret Recipe. Nyumm! Thanx Mama Wanie sebab izinkan saya diheret Kak Kui. :D

Dan di penghujung majlis, saya pun mencuba untuk jadi lovely seperti Kak Kui. Iye, LAME attempt. Saya tau. Ngee~ (Walaupun hakikatnya masa tu saya tak tengok lagi gambar Kak Kui yang lovely itu) Kata Kak Kui, kene kahwin dulu baru akan jadi lovely seperti dia. Urgkh!


All in all, majlis yang sangat meriah dan ceria and on my part, it was very nice to meet with old friends. :)

Saya kekurangan mood untuk karang mengarang, update blog ini, banyak sebabnya; exam yang sudah terlalu hampir, kurang dari 21 hari tetapi saya seperti belum study satu apa pun lagi, masalah-masalah yang terasa susah dan berat kadangkala untuk dipikul dek bahu ini dan juga mungkin kerana hati saya sudah tertinggal di satu tempat yang tidak ramai pernah sampai. ;)

Tetapi ada sesuatu yang memanggil saya untuk rajinkan diri untuk menaip entry ini.

Entah kenapa hari Rabu yang lepas ringan saja mulut saya bertanya pada kakak, di mana lelaki bermulut manis berwajah baik itu. Laju saja kakak menjawab "Bini dia masuk hospital, tunggu masa nak bersalin". Terlopong mulut saya, rasanya kalau ada lalat yang lalu lalang, pasti sudah menjumpai mulut saya yang ternganga luas ketika itu. Oh, lelaki itu seseorang yang sangat rajin flirt dengan seorang sahabat saya, dan sungguh, saya dan sahabat sungguh tidak sangka lelaki yang hanya tua setahun dari kami itu sungguh gatal rupanya. Sungguh. Kakak pun rupanya sudah lama menunggu masa yang sesuai untuk beritahu pada saya status lelaki itu.

Betul-betul terkejut dan terkesima. Dan saya terfikir buat kesekian kalinya, masih adakah lelaki yang benar-benar jujur, baik dan ikhlas yang tidak gatal, tidak akan curang dan tidak akan menghancurkan hati kami, kaum perempuan? Masih adakah?